Hey everyone, Clay here (obviously). Today I am going to break down just how my 2022 has been going, and what changes will be happening going forward. There has been…a lot of shit in my life as of late. In fact, the reason I am doing this as a written post instead of a video is because when I tried to do this as a video it came out to nearly an hour long and a mess of rambling distractions.
Also, this blog / website is going to be getting a lot more use, more on that in a bit.
Now, I am going to try to break up all the things that have occurred in 2022 in the past (checks notes) 3ish months by thing. The major thought I want you dear reader to keep in your head is that most of these events happened simultaneously with each other. While I have broken up each event / saga into its own part, keep that in mind. All this shit was happening intermixed with each other.
Just a warning. This post gets long. Like…really fucking long. Holy shit its just…long.
January and the Burnout Issue
This is most likely the simplest thing to go over. At the tail end of 2021, I started to realize I was mentally and physically exhausted. I was, in a word. Burned out. I even put out a Nerdsletter Video at the time detailing it, which you can view here:
Now, thankfully, as I took time off into February I started to feel better and more creative. Energy started to return, and I started to plan out new videos and things. However, everything that happened next put an absolute stop to most of this.
The Saga of My Teeth
During the month of January I noticed I was starting to have some cold sensitivity in my upper right back teeth. It was minor, and only seemed to trigger when I drank ice cold water. Food, pressure, heat, none of that caused any pain or bother. However, as I got into February the sensitivity got worse, and worse, slowly and surely. By mid Feb, room temp water would cause the pain, and the pain itself got worse. I knew that I had an appointment with my Dentist for a teeth cleaning in late Feb, so I figured I would tough it out till then and have them look.
The day of that appointment came, and I went in to have the dentist look at it and clean my teeth. By this point, cold foods as well as pressure was starting to cause pain flareups, and I was stressing out because of this and all the other things happening at the time. The news was not good.
While all my wisdom teeth have come in and are not impacted or screwy, the upper right one had broken. Further still, the molar directly next to it had a cavity so large it was irreparable. I was going to have to get both teeth removed. And my dentist flat out told me that he did not remove wisdom teeth, and I would need to see an oral surgeon.
That next monday, I called the surgeon he referred me to after verifying it was in my dental network, and they proceeded to warn me that the earliest they could see me was MID APRIL. Turned out, this surgeon was one of the highest rated ones in my city, and was insanely popular. They then told me they would put me on a list for a call if a sooner appt opened, which I did. 20 minutes later, I got a call that they could see me that Thursday, so I took it.
My wife comes with me at this point, as we both know she will have to drive me home most likely from the surgery. We get there, and I am so stressed (I hate the dentist, for the record) that my blood pressure is through the roof AND I am visibly shaking, even though mentally I was fine. I just wanted to get this over with. It did not help that my tooth issues were getting worse.
The surgeon comes in for the consult, takes one look at my blood pressure, another look at me, and simply goes “We are gonna have to sedate you for the procedure, you clearly are not cool with this.”
They setup the surgery for the next week on Friday. In the week between my consult and that surgery the tooth got worse, and by the time I reached the surgery I was so over it that my blood pressure and everything was normal. Now, I wanna be clear, I have never been sedated prior to this, and I am nearly 40 years old. Here is what the entire process was like for me.
They strapped me in, hooked up the IV, started the sedation drip. I closed my eyes, heard them say they were gonna numb my gums, felt the injection of the numbing agent….and next thing I know they are saying “Ok you are done!”. NOTHING IN BETWEEN. Apparently, it took 20 minutes and no issues to remove both teeth.
After the surgery I spent the next 3 weeks, basically most of march, letting my mouth heal. Thankfully it went so well I had no pain, no swelling, nothing. If it wasn’t for the bloody gauze I had to change out after the surgery and the very visible missing teeth I would have almost not believed they did ANYTHING.
I am of course fully recovered now. But as I said, this is not the only thing that happened to me these past few months.
The KO / Age of Sigmar Saga
So lets go back to January. End of January I get my tax info and file my taxes. I get enough back that my wife gives me the go ahead to spend some on some Warhammer, and I decide (after a ton of research, and we will get to that) to buy into Kharadron Overlords for Age of Sigmar. I contact a guy I have used in the past who runs an online store to get some pricing. He tells me to send an official order, so they can have it on file and once I get paid they can ship it. So I did.
I got my money the next week around Feb 8th, and pay for the order. Now, one thing I want to mention here is that the order had an Estimated Ship Date, of Feb 22nd. I figured this was a placeholder, as they had setup the order without me paying and it would make sense to set a ship date super far out to prevent it from going out before they got their money. No biggie. However, the very next day I get a confirmation of payment with the statement of “We are just waiting for things to come in from Games Workshop!”
I quickly ask “Wait, you had to order things?” as this had not been told to me. Turns out, that Feb 22nd ship date was NOT a placeholder. That was the date they expected to get all the items I wanted in…but they did not bother to explain that. And every time I ask for updates going forward from this point, I get little joking updates.
Eventually the order does ship…on Feb 26ish. And it gets delivered 2 days before my Dental Surgery. By this point? I was so miserable and unhappy from everything that had been going on I didn’t even care. The entire process, combined with everything else had just sapped me of any joy I had of getting my order. They were placed on my shelf in their boxes. They are still there, waiting, along with 2 Gunpla kits.
But we are NOT DONE YET (jesus this year so far). Also, I will explain why I am on Age of Sigmar now. Don’t worry, we will get there in this giant ass mess.
The Rent Hike, Job Hunt, and Moving Saga
And on we go back to the start of February. My apartment allows me to renew up to 6 to 7 months in advance, so I figured I would contact them, get the rate, and possibly setup a renewal as my lease was up in September. Mainly to lock in a good low rent, as they always increase my rent. Generally $50 a month when I renew, that’s the USUAL rent increase.
Oh how I wish it was only $50 a month.
I contact them, and they get back to me….and they inform me due to the prices of every apartment complex in my city, they would want to increase my rent by $200 a month if I renewed. Further still, I only had that rate till May, as the summer was going to be ANOTHER rate hike. Now, to understand how rough this would be for me, I currently am the sole income source in my house. My wife had been working retail, but left back in 2019 to pursue some personal projects, and then by the time she was ready to re-enter the retail work force…COVID hit. And because I knew that we could afford to live without her working, I kept her home and did my job from home as well.
But now? That $200 increase would be doable…barely. Like, we are talking going to eating ramen every meal doable. It was just gonna break my income. So thus, we were left to figure out what we were gonna do.
After talking to my wife, we decided she would find a job, and then we would move out of the city. We figured given that everyone was SEEMINGLY desperate for workers, she would have no issues getting a new retail position. She only had to work part time. She first applied to a nearby grocery store, and found out they had walk in interviews. So the friday before I had to do my dental visit (the one mentioned earlier, where I found out about my teeth), she went to the walk in interview.
A week later, before my surgery, she was rejected. Mostly we think due to them wanting stock workers, and her telling them she couldn’t do that due to her knees being screwy.
It was also about this point, when I got my Kharadron Overlords order, that I realized that even though I now had the minis, it would be foolish to assemble them. I was planning to move in 5 months! It would be easier to move them in their boxes, same with the 2 Gunpla kits I still had yet to assemble. This realization did not help my mood or stress levels let me tell you.
We both agree that she shouldn’t try to find a job until after my dental surgery now, so we get through that, and a few days later she applies to Wawa, a local convience store chain. She gets rejected before even getting to an interview. At this point, it’s a week into March, and I am starting to realize if she doesn’t find a job soon, we will not be able to move simply due to not having the time needed to save to pay for movers, nor to pay for the OBSCENE deposits on apartments and homes people want. We are talking $1000 security deposits plus 1st months’ rent. Its insane.
Second week of March, that Friday. I have the idea to look and see if my company, which is needing more people, had any openings for customer service or data entry. Turns out, yes, we had spots open! So I get her to apply (this is the second time she has tried to get hired by my company, the first being almost 4 years ago now).
And I shit you not, this is the truth: She finishes the application online at 6:30pm at night, on a Friday. 6:33pm she gets an email, and a text, AND A PHONE CALL, all from a Recruiter from my company to call her back. It was literally 3 minutes from her hitting submit to the recruiter calling. She returns the call and discovers that we have an online hiring event happening the next week, the 16th of March, and he wants her to attend. They are doing on the spot interviews.
She of course agrees, and on the day of the interview she nails it (IMO), with the interviewer telling her “You are going to move on to the next step, and will hear from us in 2 to 3 weeks”.
So 3 weeks pass, and we hit April 6th, exactly 3 weeks later. My wife is stressing as we haven’t heard a single word, and she breaks down as she realizes that we cant move now. Its not going to be possible, as any job she gets will not give her time to apartment hunt, nor the time needed to save money. So we contact my complex, and sign a new lease starting in September, with a rent of $1023 a month (not including water, which is another $40).
She goes to take a nap to calm down…and during the nap gets a text and call from our friendly recruiter. All he says is “give me a call when you can”. She doesn’t wake up from the nap till 8pm, and we both agree that she should call around 9am the next day, as he works out of my home office and seems to be a late start.
We also both agree that it seems odd to have her call if they are just going to reject her (Which she feels is going to happen). Lo and behold, she calls, and they offer her a JOB! And her pay is nearly mine, meaning we are going to double our income! But…her start date is May 2nd, meaning we both were right, and there was no way we would be able to apartment search nor save money fast enough to move in August (which was the plan, since the lease would have ended in early September).
We made the right call, and we realize at this point we will at least have 17ish months to save, clear up debt, and find a place with cheaper rent and a more relaxed atmosphere. And probably a bigger place too! We will need a bigger one, as her position, unlike mine, requires her to take and make calls all day. And because of that she needs to be away from any real noise. Our place works for that, but it’s not ideal. A bigger place where she can have an office makes more sense.
So while this particular stress started horrible, at least THIS one had a happy ending…but this one has some other ramifications I will get into in a bit.
Age of Sigmar? Really?
Some of you have been paying attention to this blog of mine since I started it, back in May 2021. At that time, you might remember that I was completely focused on Warhammer 40k. Its nearly a year later, and I have gone through quite a bit. So let me lay out the timeline of events that lead me to where I am now, buying into Age of Sigmar, and specifically the Kharadron Overlords. I have learned a lot about what I look for in a miniatures wargame, the kinds of things that attract me to them, and why each thing prior to AoS has failed me.
When I was first getting back into Wargaming, what got me to even consider it was the plethora of Battle reports on YouTube, the VAST MAJORITY of which are Warhammer 40k focused. Seriously, finding video battle reports or discussion vids on anything outside of 40k is pretty damn hard. It did not help that I did not have much of an interest in Old World Warhammer Fantasy, and because of that I dismissed Age of Sigmar out of hand. 40k was the game, clearly. I knew very little of its lore, but I knew I liked how the models looked. Hence my eventual purchase of a Space Marine Blood Angels Combat Patrol, Space Marine Codex, and 40k Core Rulebook.
I enjoyed putting the Space Marines together, but then as I tried to get into the backstory and lore I found it…not to my taste. Turns out, 40k really is Grimdark to the point where there are no real good people, no good guys. I could barely bring myself to slog thru the lore and history in the 40k Core Book, because it was just too damn depressing. Maybe as an angry teenager it appealed to me, but now? No. It also did not help that I found that 40k seemed to attract…sweaties for lack of a better term. People who are super hyper competitive. The game itself is built to cater to those people, and the community around it just did not make me want to engage with it.
So I started trying to find something where the story and world appealed to me. I came across Kings of War, and instead of really looking into the models I figured I would start with the world! Clearly, models were not the issue (foolish of me, we will get to that) but I needed to engage with the factions and world to dig into a game. And Kings of War has that. It has actual good guys, and bad guys, and a decent world, and interesting characters! The things I felt 40k was missing. I quickly found the faction I loved, the Order of the Green Lady. Hell, I like it so much I wrote bloody fiction introducing it!
But then I ran into an issue. It’s not an officially supported faction, meaning Mantic Games doesn’t produce official minis for it. Now, for some people, this is not an issue. 3D Printing exists obviously! But after months of me digging and trying to find minis that would fit what I was after to start playing…I couldn’t locate ANYTHING that felt good. I would find 1 or 2 here and there, but then nothing that would match then, visually.
At this point, Deadzone 3rd Ed got announced, and I was like “Ok this is a skirmish game, I like that. This is Mantic, so the lore is prolly good, and looking at the model lines I like the Asterians and the Rats…. Lets dig into the lore”. So I started doing just that. And I found another universe I liked, with good and bad guys, interesting twists on classics (Asterians, for instance, are Space Elves who fight via Robot Proxies, cause why would you risk your long lived low birth rate race in a fight?!). I bought the starter, even unboxed it on Youtube…and then found that the Asterians were sold out everwhere at the time. And that the way Mantic produces minis is…not a fun thing to try to assemble.
And, as I had already learned, I liked the assembly process the most.
CRAP.
At this point I was ready to just…give up. I was hitting the point of Burnout in general as well, which did not help. Then I noticed people discussing Age of Sigmar again, and I saw a picture.
This is not the picture I saw, exactly, but something similar.
I had no idea what the hell that was, but my brain was screaming THIS IS AWESOME. So I started to dig a little, and discovered what Age of Sigmar was all about.
By now, however, I had figured out exactly what I had wanted with a miniatures game. Let me lay that out before we continue.
- I wanted models that I liked the look of, that were interesting to assemble, and that I would want on my shelf. Painted or not
- I wanted a world where there were good guys, or at least not raging racist assholes. Sorry 40k but you uhhh you got issues.
- I did NOT want to have to hunt for minis myself. And I wanted something supported.
- I wanted a game that had a community not purely focused on hardcore competitive play
Age of Sigmar fit literally all these things. I spent a few weeks watching a ton of Age of Sigmar battle reports, from channels like Seasons of War, Guerilla Miniature Games, and Miniwargamer.com learning about the different factions and things. I chatted with friends of mine about the various factions, and researched the actual miniatures lines.
I ended up finding 2 factions that visually interested me: Cities of Sigmar and Kharadron Overlords. I bought a KO ebook, and read it, and enjoyed it. I found the dwarves to be very interesting, and realized that the model I had seen was one of theirs. With the help of a friend (who shant be named) I got ahold of the Codexes for both Kharadron and Cities…and read them literally cover to cover. No, seriously. Where I could not even begin to care about the Space Marines and barely had touched my codex, I CONSUMED the KO and Cities ones. It was also here where I discovered the concept of allied armies, and all that jazz, and learned that Cities had an option (Tempest Keep) where you could actually bring in KO units and treat them as full on Cities units. DOPE.
I ended up finally settling on KO for one simple reason: Lack of choice. I know, seems odd, but with Cities I kept bouncing between choices. Did I want Anvilguard and their creepy hydra? Do I want classic dwarven might? Do I want a mix? Do I want Greatswords? What do I WANT! ANALYSIS PARALYSIS GO!
KO was MUCH simplier. BOATS. Give me BOATS. ALL THE FUCKING BOATS!
I actually WANTED to assemble, and even paint, the KO models I had seen. And that was when I finally dropped the money for, no joke, exactly 1k points of KO (at least by 2nd Ed AOS standards, KO doesnt have a 3rd Ed Battletome yet).
What did I get?
I got a Start Collecting Box, which contains a Gunhaular, 3 Endrinriggers, 5 Thunderers, and an Endrinmaster. I then also got a second Gunhauler, a Frigate, and an Aetherkhemist. 1000 points, and a fully playable army under Barak Urbaz (Gunhaulers are Battleline under them). My next purchase will be an Ironclad, which will bring me straight to 1500 points.
Everything I have seen of AoS, overall, has been positive, unlike a lot of the vitriol I see around 40k, nevermind 40k’s competative obsession. And it helps that both KO and Cities are actually, for the most part, “good guys”. Sure, the KO trade with some…dubious people, but hey, coin is king am I right? They at least have honor.
What comes next for Terminally Nerdy?
And finally we reach the end of this madness. Its April 10th, 2022 as I write this. And I am sure you are curious where the hell I am, and where the hell I am going, after ALL OF THAT.
Well, first and foremost, I am getting back to content creation. But not in the way I have been these past 2 years. See, with my wife working from home and being on the phone, we run into an issue: privacy. We both will be working in Healthcare, and there are legal issues surrounding privacy. Because our hours will be different (me ending work almost 4 hours earlier then her) I cannot safely record anything really, as there is a risk of protected information being picked up. Nevermind my voice being picked up by her system! I can listen to stuff with headphones on but thats it, even with her in another room (which she will be). The only times I would have to work on videos now would be the weekends. When we are both off work and spending time together!
I have spent most of this weekend considering this, and finally came to the conclusion that it might be best to go back to what I used to do, which is writing. You are going to notice in the coming weeks a bunch of reviews going up on this site. These are older reviews that I wrote back when I had a previous blog (now gone) that I saved, and I figured I might as well start “seeding” this blog with that sort of content.
Further still, there will be more hobby stuff going up here. Pictures of Gunpla kits put together with reviews on them, musing about Age of Sigmar as well as fiction around it, all that jazz.
I am not going to lie either. Youtube has gotten to be a pain in the proverbial ass for me. Writing scripts is the easy part of making those video reviews, and I write them as if they were written reviews TO BEGIN WITH. I am not going to remove the channel, as I may end up making occasional VLog type videos there, but by and large?
My work is moving back to written. It just makes more sense. Now, that may change a bit down the road when we get a new place, depending on how it feels there, but honestly I may just stick with this. My fanbase has never been large, honestly, and now a days I dont have any real hope to become a “Youtube Content Creator”. All I want to do is write, and enjoy my time in this hobby now.
Hell I wrote this entire post while waiting in queue for Final Fantasy 14 dungeons to pop! Oh god 6.1 is coming out in like 2 days HYPE I am so ready for that. New adventure!
So expect my future reviews, first impressions, nerdsletters, all of that to end up here. You can follow me on twitter, or just setup an email subscription if you want to get notified when I post. Or just visit occasionally! Its all the same to me really.
And if you actually got this far? If you read this entire thing?
HAM SAMMICH. I will not explain further.